Soul Cognition
December 8th, 2011 § Leave a Comment
“Listen to your life. See it for the fathomless mystery it is. In the boredom and pain of it, no less than in the excitement and gladness. Touch, taste, smell your way to the holy and hidden heart of it, because in the last analysis all moments are key moments, and life itself is grace.” –Frederick Buechner
There is a hunger alive in each person whose path I have crossed since embracing this journey, but it is not the type of hunger that has come to define this part of the impoverished world; it is a hunger entirely different. It burns deeply in the eyes of those who have chosen to give everything up to be present in the childhood of our 26 and it burns ever more deeply in the eyes of the children who by no choice of their own have seen everything taken away before even entering our lives. It is a hunger in the hands of our mighty donors who make the noble decision to put value in where they allocate and not what they accumulate, it is in the millions of people who fight their way just for one chance to escape the deepest and darkest regions of life. It is a hunger I’ve grown to know intimately in my own life and one whose powerful grip I know only grows tighter with disdain. Everything begins to take second stride when we are living in pursuit of fulfilling it, and to be out of its pursuit is analogous to never fully breathing. It is a hunger that increasingly more of us are living with, and as a result is the reason why it is possible that just a handful of strangers can better the childhood of an entire community. It is a yearning to find a place in the world that is meaningful and in turn to feel the eternal enrichment of ourselves that lives at the crux of this pursuit. This journey and these children have taught me that there is only one way to satisfy this hunger, and it is the only way in which we can ever express the difference we truly want to make in this world. It is simply, to give.
The advantage of living in a culture other than your own is the freeing of perspective. In stepping away from everything we once knew, we afford ourselves the distance to decide the value of what exists in our lives purely by living without it. This desire to find a place in the world that is meaningful and to give to others is surprisingly more evident in a place where there are not even things to give. It has opened my eyes to the ways in which we give outside of the material realm, and the potent importance of giving that lies specifically in the human sphere. The children at Flying Kites have become my most poignant teacher in this lesson, and one in particular painted it for me in all his captivating hues one day early in the morning in our matron’s kitchen.
We were up earlier than normal to surprise the kids with banana pancakes, after discovering that they had never in their lives eaten them before. The kitchen was lit by an overcast canvas of static light, I felt the warmth on my face as steam danced liked dervishes through the air from our tea. One of our loved guards was perched casually in the window, the frosty air exaggerated his breath with each bellowing laugh. An aria of Kenyan folk music rose from the ground below as I looked to one of our oldest boys to acknowledge the moment that would forever remain in both of our memories. He was up early insisting that he help us in exchange for teaching him how to make our foreign treat. I was grateful for his presence. His eyes are so full of sincerity it is hard to look at them squarely, and he expresses everything with them. There is an understanding and disquiet in his glances that flies to distances far beyond his seventeen years. I’ve never been so convinced of the potential of anyone. He was placing the banana slices on the rounded heap of pancake mix with the precision and diligence of a practiced artist when he turned to me to say,
“ Unanitia Moyo”
The tilt in my head suggested I needed a lesson in Kiswahili, and after finally deciding his pancake was fit to flip, he turned again to face me, “it means you inspire me.” The comment seized me like night air and I began to think about all the ways he inspires me more than I could ever possibly inspire him; the ways in which he teaches me, simply by existing, to never stop fighting for my own meaningful place in this world. It was a moment stamped so deeply on my heart that it will never require any effigy to remind me of it, because it was a crucial lesson on the beautiful ways in which we give of ourselves. He gave me nothing of particular substance, but instead he shared with me that which was alive within him, and it was one of the greatest gifts I’d ever received.
You see, in the world of giving there is a natural law of abundance that exists, because once we decide to look within ourselves to give to someone else, then we are never short of resources. We ourselves are already the conduits of change that we are hungry to become; we just have to start looking within to find creative solutions to the callings that exist all around us. In the lens through which we experience life, we have the option to decide how to engage in our own greatness and how to act mindfully to enrich the lives of others, and that itself is an exquisite gift. It’s taken much of my life and many fateful strangers to teach me that when we give to somebody else the relief of some small bit of suffering, they never forget the chance they were given so they are likely to give to somebody else, and the effect keeps going. It’s the effect that makes Flying Kites so valuable and so radically distinctive. We are showing these children that parents or not, they deserve a chance to find their own meaningful place in this world, and to challenge their own potential. You can see it in their eyes every single day that it is a gift that one day they will give back too. By giving and teaching to give, we nurture ourselves and the world that exists all around us, we plant the seeds for a future that breaks static cycles like that of poverty. It’s how we express the difference we wish to make and in turn, ripen the graces of our own souls.
Our hunger is a sign of life. It gives breath to dreams whose evolution to reality have a potential to unfold, save only that a move be made, a button pressed, a lever pulled. People only start to get really interesting when they rattle the bars of their cages, and if you feel this hunger to make a difference, then there is no more opportune time to act than now. It’s a matter of satisfaction, and it’s a matter of living. When we are living in the pursuit of the difference we wish to make then we are finally arrived at the holy and hidden heart of a life fulfilled.
The Sun Never Says
November 24th, 2011 § 3 Comments
After
All this time
The sun never says to the earth,
“You owe me.”
Look
What happens
With a love like that-
It lights the whole
World
-Hafiz
The sky was filled with nearly night. I could barely discern the features of the man who stood in front of me through the watery panes of my glasses, and the words that emptied from his mouth were void of any lingual familiarity. The still waters of the Nile shamed the light of the illuminated city telling me it was not yet dawn. I could hear the crowd of displaced passengers, restless and growing in size swelling outside the door as my breath began to compete in tempo with my heart. My eyes pined for the light just beyond the blinds drawn shut, and I began to recollect the events that precipitated my plane’s unplanned landing in Sudan.
“I didn’t even tell my son how much I loved him.”
The hollowed voice of the man beside me shook me to waking. A rogue wind swept through the aisle and the emergency lights lit themselves as the plane jolted to the left, I gauged the seriousness of my awakening by the wrinkle in my neighbor’s brow. My mind was hurtling through darkness, not wanting to recognize what was about to happen, but the realization gaining on me. The commotion ahead surrounded a man with an unkempt beard whose voice carried clear across the hierarchies of airplane seating. The sad timbre in his voice reverberated in each of us as the dreaded words escaped his mouth.
“I am going to blow up this plane.”
Everything in me rose to my face wishing I could, by some inconceivable means be back in the warmth of the home I left so far behind. And in an instant, all the reasons I was on a plane to Nairobi in the first place came charging at me in sobering clarity. All of the reasons I pined for this dream flashed uninvited to the forefront of my conscious and I could hardly believe that in one action it could all be taken away. Such are the beautiful and the complex faces of the karmic coin, juxtaposed and undeniable, and impossible to be judged unless we ourselves are the protagonists of such a fateful action.
All of my earthly possessions were stacked two suitcases high in the belly of the plane, I was moving to Kenya to spend the next year of my life volunteering with the children’s home at Flying Kites. I suppose the fate of this plane was as uncertain as any, but as deadened silence fell upon our sputtering aircraft, our blood began to leak conscious into the monster we call fear, and the future seemed as uncertain as ever. A heroic effort is a collective effort, and it took the combined force of many to restrain the man and the snap decision of our pilot to emergency land us in Khartoum. It felt like a matter of minutes. We had landed, my bags were taken away, my passport was snatched, and my only company was a man interrogating me about the absence of a Sudanese visa. I reached in my back pocket for a stack of tissues encased in plastic from CVS in an effort to ease my feelings of estrangement. It was a lengthy three hours before the circumstance of our landing revealed itself, a man was handcuffed and escorted out of Khartoum International Airport, my passport was back in my hands and I was brought to a small plane set to land in Nairobi the following morning. There, once again, it was clear that nothing was going to stand in the way me getting to Kenya.
I learned more about gratitude in the exhausting, murmuring moment Angie reached her arms around me, than I had in all the months before. The feeling of a friend’s embrace in a place far away from home is a treasure that I will forever use as a star to navigate the midnight ocean of uncertainty. We arrived at the house some time past noon, and the details that followed are ones etched deeper in my heart than any. To see the faces of the children I had dreamt about in so many ways before we met was more fulfilling than I could ever explain, and it took but one touch from one tiny hand for a river to flood my heart. One of the greatest joys of living a dream fulfilled is the significance immediately drawn to everything around you. You are no longer just going to work, you are doing just as you’ve always wanted to do. You are no longer just seeing a child, you are looking into the eyes that you would incite wars to defend. You are no longer just going home, you are going exactly where you are meant to be. Most of all, when you find yourself face to face with destiny, there is the thrilling prospect of complete surrender.
The greatest potential for profound understanding to unfold grows from the trials we face, and it can be our most vulnerable moments that allow us to reach the true substance of life. For me, it took ten days living under the impression I’d never see everything I once owned again to realize it was never the things I carried that I needed at all. It took the transition to a life unknown to discover the most precious thing we can offer to life, is our surrender to the wonders of its uncertainty. We look to our children to see the courage it takes to trust in our destinies, and to the stars above to realize that it all connects in a beautiful constellation somewhere.
*Today is Thanksgiving, a time to reflect on all that we have and to express gratitude for all the people in our lives who have helped us achieve such a beautiful vision. Your attention, your donations, and your endless loving support have transformed a dream to change the life of one child into the reality of saving the lives of many. On behalf of everyone here at the Flying Kites family, the 26 children whose lives you have forever impacted, thank you.
Ode to the Donor
October 12th, 2011 § Leave a Comment
In the long history of humankind (and animal kind, too) those who learned to collaborate and improvise most effectively have prevailed.
-Charles Darwin
It is a beautiful autumn day in Washington DC. I write you as leaves filling the fall spectrum are furling their way to the ground while the steam from my mug spindles toward the sky, and it is a joy to behold. In keeping with the season, today I’d like to fall into gratitude and celebrate each of you that have made the conscious decision to open yourself to generosity. Two short months ago I set out to raise $10,000 for Flying Kites Global, a non-profit that operates a primary school and home for orphaned children in Kenya, and today I am happy to report that this goal has been surpassed. To say I accomplished this on my own would in no way be true, this dream was pushed forth into reality only because of the compassion of others. Here is the true value of karma and compassion- that it reaches outwards of our own realm and effects the life of another.
With over 15 events and an outpouring of donors the results and implications of the collective donation are tremendous. Along with contributing to the well-being and happiness of 27 incredible children in Kenya, we have also accomplished fulfilling the following needs of their home: Avocado and peanut butter for HIV positive and underweight children for one month, two months of generator fuel for the home which allows the children to study long past sundown, two months of rent for the Flying Kites home, three months of professional private counseling for the children, one month of food and care for the home’s milk cow, vertigo medicine for a matron, and new school shoes for 27 kids.
This is a beautiful thing, and it is an illustration of how our generosity and compassion have the potential to affect another, in this case 27, so directly. I want to thank you with such an immensity that does not yet exist in any language, even French. Thank you for showing up, for lending your ears, opening your eyes, donating, committing, and for the unwavering support that has been offered. In many ways, this is the beginning for all of us. For me, reaching this goal becomes the momentum for a journey of contribution for the Flying Kites kids. And for you, it is the beginning of a relationship forged with the children whose stories will soon reveal themselves on the pages of this blog. I am certainly blessed with this opportunity. With your continued support, I will introduce you to children whose potential may challenge your own, to individuals who display compassion in extraordinary ways that will give you hope, and to the limitless opportunity we each have every single day to make a difference in the life of another.
If you’d like to help me soar past this goal, I have something in mind. The 27 children at the Flying Kites home hail from the Central Highlands of Kenya, and have never seen an ocean in their lives. An additional $5,000 raised would allow for all 27 of the children, plus 6 staff members to travel to the coast of Kenya for a weekend of brand new experiences. This would literally be a dream realized for every one of the children. If you can imagine seeing the ocean for the very first time, then you can imagine how unforgettable this gift would be. If you are nodding yes, I invite you to contribute to the fundraising site today.
With deepest gratitude,
Hannah
Open Your Eyes
October 12th, 2011 § 2 Comments
I like to imagine that at any given moment, there must be millions of acts of kindness taking place around the world. I like to imagine that somewhere, someone is clueing a stranger in on their trail of toilet paper stuck to a heel, or that someone somewhere is putting a fallen baby bird back in it’s nest, but most of all I like to imagine that the acts of kindness that are happening right now are far grater than the ones my own mind can even imagine.
What distinguishes the human species is the imagination. We can imagine the suffering of a mother in defenseless search for a lost child, the cling to life of a harpooned whale, the joy of a bride on her wedding day, and the struggle of a far away stranger to make ends meet. It is this imagination that lays the root for empathy, and our empathy for others that makes us capable of committing extraordinary acts of kindness. Let this be a lesson in the importance of each other, and the inescapable gift of our consciousness to imagine the joys and pushes of another’s life because only an innate sense of empathy toward others can motivate us to act on their behalf.
Imagine what it would be like to transcend the words of Rumi’s poem, and go beyond to the feelings these words so powerfully give rise to. Imagine what it would be like to build the strength of those feelings so that they become a radiant way of being with which to move through our daily lives. Our life can become a source of magnificence to the world or it can add to the already mounting anxiety and negativity. The choice is up to us. We are all capable of extraordinary things, and the moment we open up our eyes to our interconnectedness we begin to forge a sense of stewardship toward the compassion it takes to elevate ourselves to act as we were born to do, we fly.
Inspiration
September 1st, 2011 § Leave a Comment
“To reach the depth of the soul, that which is unmanifest, we need to be totally open to great joy without attachment.” –Ligia Dantes
What would it take
To let joy go
With the same wide arms
That drew it in?
Willingness to be a flute
Hollow open at both ends
Trusting the power
And range of its voice
When the gathered breath
Strikes the waiting
Space within
-Shailja Patel























